Dragonfly

I used to be a little scared of dragonflies. They zip and dash all over on a bunch of glittery scaly wings all while looking at you with those great big beady eyes that I was sure could see right into my soul.  I wasn’t sure whether or not not they could bite or sting, and let’s be honest, a dragonfly is  intimidating. They seem to not care at all about  what you think  of them, they are going to  live their life and if you get in their way  you better move because they they are going to do what they want. They have a life to live and they’re not gonna let anyone stop them.   They weren’t always that way.

I had an epiphany  a few months ago.  I’m at the halfway point of my life.  I’ve life HALF OF MY LIFE already. I wondered if I had lived them to the fullest, and wasn’t 100% sure, especially lately.  What did I let stop me?   The past few years have been  different for me.  I’ve struggled a lot with physical and mental health issues.  My kids are nearly grown and life is changing, fast.  So many things that used to take up all my time  have changed and I’m learning how to change, too.

A dragonfly doesn’t start off it’s life as the beautiful flying creature that everyone knows.  It starts off as a nymph, underwater, slowly growing and  becoming until  it’s reached it’s potential, then it emerges as  a magical winged creature ready to  explore the world and live in the moment.  It has made a change, the wait is over, and it’s going to live it’s live fully.

A dragonfly symbolizes change, transformation, adaptability, and self-realization.    That’s why I am adopting it as my new mascot.  This is what my life is about now- change and sharing the person I am becoming. This year, I will turn 49, and  I realized that dammit, I’m like a dragonfly-  I’ve earned my wings and it’s time to fly   Plus, a dragonfly is pretty damn badass.  It’s a flying dragon, after all, surrounded by magic and  it’s own joy.