I spent a lot of time last year telling myself I was a failure.
I spent a lot of time hating on myself when I realized I put back most of the weight I lost.
That number on the scale adding to my self doubt and subtracting from the love I had for myself.
All because of silly numbers. I am so much more than just numbers.
One of the goals, THE MOST IMPORTANT goal I have for myself in 2014 is to LOVE MYSELF. I am giving myself permission to realize that I’m still a good person, still worthy of all things wonderful even though my pants are bigger. I’m giving myself permission to make ME a priority again, and to know that other things can wait while I’m at it. I need to go to the gym. That’s all there is to it. I’m filling my cabinets with flax seeds and protein and frozen bananas and greens and telling my family: I need ME. TIME. They will listen. See, THEY support me and believe in me. It’s only ME who doubts me.
I need to embrace me even MORE now because I did it before and know what I can do. I need to find my core and BE STRONG again , I’ve made a decision.
I’ve decided to LOVE MYSELF. For ME. Not the number on the scale, or the size of my jeans or the outfit I wear. I am going to LOVE MYSELF for the person I am TODAY. Each morning I get up and it’s a clean slate. My plan is to eat well and move more, but if that day, I eat a homemade cupcake, so be it- good for me! I want to rejoice in the hard workout and the walk around the fields. I want to find joy in what I do for myself, not for a number or a size.
I want to love myself again. And I’m starting TODAY.