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January 13, 2016
I walked by the open bedroom door and stopped to turn off the light. As my hand reached for the switch, I glanced at the person laying on the bed and thought: That is a young man. Its not longer my little boy, but a young man.
Wait, STOP, Just for a minute. STOP. I need a second to catch up. I need a moment to say goodbye.
I know that I will let go of the kid who was caught between two worlds- of boy and teen- because I’ve done it all along. As a tiny baby whose whole body fit neatly in one hand, to a grinning toddler who went everywhere in a Captain Feathersword costume carrying either a Thomas the Tank Engine or a Lightning McQueen car, to a sturdy school aged boy who RAN everywhere, explored EVERYWHRE and gave me constant heart attacks- I loved each and every stage and while I looked forward to the next one, I mourned the loss of the one we left behind.
Just a while ago I begged for just one more summer of what I thought was the perfect age for him. Oh, how I needed just a little more time of my little guy being little. I got my wish- one more summer of little boy madness. Then inevitable, he went on to the next stage. He grew. And I grew with him. I had no choice, it was grow, or be left behind.
Even now, I see how wonderful it’s been. I see what an amazing teenager he is becoming. There are so many changes happening with him even on a daily basis, it seems like he SHOT up taller than my 5’9” in a week, to suddenly having a deeper voice and a different laugh and even different ways of thinking. We discuss politics for God’s sake, and he knows what he’s talking about. He’s growing up, moving on, leaving childhood behind as he reaches for his full potential. That’s the plan, and I’m doing my job right because he’s already an amazing person. He will be a magnificent man.
I think that I will always miss that grinning toddler, the magical ideas of a 6 year old, the Cars cars, the #EpicForts and my little boy. Having said goodbye to each stage lets me know what I’m missing, and what I’m gaining.Oh my boy is growing up, and it’s a wonderful, magical thing. We have SO many adventures ahead of us! I’m lucky that he still thinks Mom is cool, for the most part, or at least pretends that I am –and he still wants to hang out with me. He still is my adventure buddy, but now, he suggests adventures. He’ll leave me behind to hang out with his friends, but make sure he comes back for a kiss goodbye, and an “I love you” before he walks away, regardless of who is around. He still asks my opinion, then he forms his own.
Sometimes, he still grabs my hand before we cross the street. I just can’t tell if it’s to keep him safe, or for him to keep me safe. Whatever the reason, I hold on.
Filed Under: Family Wendy 11 Comments
Pepper says February 20, 2015 at 2:49 pm Awe don’t make me cry!!! Reply
Pepper says
February 20, 2015 at 2:49 pm
Awe don’t make me cry!!!
Melissa Pezza says February 20, 2015 at 3:18 pm What a beautiful post. I’m so thankful everyday that all of my kids are still young. I’m not ready to watch them turn into actual HUMANS yet. =( Reply
Melissa Pezza says
February 20, 2015 at 3:18 pm
What a beautiful post. I’m so thankful everyday that all of my kids are still young. I’m not ready to watch them turn into actual HUMANS yet. =(
Jenn says February 20, 2015 at 9:26 pm Awwww! I get sad every time my kids grow out of their clothes or start a new year of school. They grow up in a blink of an eye. I have to remember to cherish every moment that they are still sort of young. Reply
Jenn says
February 20, 2015 at 9:26 pm
Awwww! I get sad every time my kids grow out of their clothes or start a new year of school. They grow up in a blink of an eye. I have to remember to cherish every moment that they are still sort of young.
Kathleen Kennedy-Leon says February 20, 2015 at 10:03 pm I had some of the same thoughts, when I tucked my son in –his legs got SO BIG!! and his front teeth grew in and they are SO BIG! he is getting SO BIG!! I am trying to enjoy it all each and every day! Reply
Kathleen Kennedy-Leon says
February 20, 2015 at 10:03 pm
I had some of the same thoughts, when I tucked my son in –his legs got SO BIG!! and his front teeth grew in and they are SO BIG! he is getting SO BIG!! I am trying to enjoy it all each and every day!
Chelley @ AisForAdelaide says February 20, 2015 at 10:42 pm I just looked at the comparison pics of my oldest at 5 months and my 5 months old and swore I was breaking down. Parenting is hard… why does time go so fast, yet slow?! Reply
Chelley @ AisForAdelaide says
February 20, 2015 at 10:42 pm
I just looked at the comparison pics of my oldest at 5 months and my 5 months old and swore I was breaking down. Parenting is hard… why does time go so fast, yet slow?!
Christina says February 21, 2015 at 8:55 am This one got me. One of the hardest things about motherhood is having to watch them grow then eventually leave the nest. It is almost unfair. But you’ve captured some beautiful moments. You can always hang onto the memories. Reply
Christina says
February 21, 2015 at 8:55 am
This one got me. One of the hardest things about motherhood is having to watch them grow then eventually leave the nest. It is almost unfair. But you’ve captured some beautiful moments. You can always hang onto the memories.
Amy @ Marvelous Mommy says February 21, 2015 at 1:48 pm Aww, my little girl is 5 years old and I feel like she’s at the perfect age too. They grow up so fast! Reply
Amy @ Marvelous Mommy says
February 21, 2015 at 1:48 pm
Aww, my little girl is 5 years old and I feel like she’s at the perfect age too. They grow up so fast!
Rosey says February 21, 2015 at 4:14 pm My ‘babies’ are 26 and 21. I get this, totally. 😉 Reply
Rosey says
February 21, 2015 at 4:14 pm
My ‘babies’ are 26 and 21. I get this, totally. 😉
Raijean says February 21, 2015 at 11:26 pm I’m going through this now, he is growing up so fast. Reply
Raijean says
February 21, 2015 at 11:26 pm
I’m going through this now, he is growing up so fast.
Onica (MommyFactor) says February 22, 2015 at 7:14 am As a fellow mom of a boy, I can understand these feelings. Our baby boys grow up so quickly. Its both wonderful and scary. Reply
Onica (MommyFactor) says
February 22, 2015 at 7:14 am
As a fellow mom of a boy, I can understand these feelings. Our baby boys grow up so quickly. Its both wonderful and scary.
Debi says February 23, 2015 at 10:40 pm I am dealing with kids growing too fast right now. My son turns 18 in under 3 weeks and I have struggling with it. Reply
Debi says
February 23, 2015 at 10:40 pm
I am dealing with kids growing too fast right now. My son turns 18 in under 3 weeks and I have struggling with it.
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